"The Master"

Your breaking me
taken me places I don't wanna go, let my blood flow
in black of night I can't stand the
sight of you, or your lips, the craving Im getting to
my finger tips, I need it
I want it don't keep me waiting
can you see this is degrading
Im whoring myself for your affections
Im bracing myself for your rejections
I hate you, you dumb fuck
your playing with me
I want you my lover just stand by me
your pulling my strings
planning your schemes
and Im liven it
every moment your given me

"My Boy"

Im feeling you fully
though my words are unruly
they don't give you justice, but emotions
that trust what a man can
accomplish in his short stay on earth
what gives you the right to tell me what Im worth
Im no longer stayin' silent I want you to hear me
my voice isn't quite so fuck you for feeling
so alienated, yet somehow elated
how do you do it? you blew it with my heart
now stick a gun in your mouth and make
a work of art on your carpet I ain't cleanin it you bastard
call your momma she loves ya
not me,oh no she don't love me

"The Man I Love"

The world upon his hands

When he makes his demands

As a lady I cant deny the attraction

My reaction makes my body quake

He makes me shake

All over the floor

See me begging for more

Like child wants his mother

But see I just want a lover

Dont tell me you cant feel it

I see it in your face

But youre makin a disgrace

Of the love I give you

I want to kill you

But you see I cant

I love you

Damnit I love you

"Bonnie and Clyde"

you and me baby we're Bonnie and Clyde
romeo and juilte in a getaway car
moven to a land that's not so far
from what we remeber like last september
you know how we hate to be alone
we bought this life and made it our own
baby i'll fight this battle of you and me
i'll light this fucking candel so maybe you'll see
that i am yours and you are mine
no one can break that bond
time can tell when we're all dead
if our love was all in our heads.

"Pretender"

Ill pretend for you

Pretend its all okay

Ill wait for you

Until that faithful day

Ill pray for you

So that one day well be together

Ill pretend for you

To be with you forever

~that's about my Lynnie~

Paranoid on a Polaroid

Snap bang

Here we go smile and look pretty

Deceive the world of who you are

Touch up the nitty gritty

Strike a pose and bare it all

No one seems to care, yet when your in the

Centerfold the whole world has to stare

You wear nice clothes and shop real big

But no one knows the truth

In reality youre scared inside

But no one has the proof.

~got bored in the LMC and that came out~

How it is

What you get and what you need

Two very different things indeed.

But its all there in black and white,

So you can leave or stay the night.

 ~this one was about a guy i'll call "B"~

Whats inside?

Its ridiculous

How you treat me

You say you love me

Then you beat me.

God it kills me

How you use me

How can you want me

Then abuse.

Do you need me?

Am I wanted?

Youre in my dreams

My thoughts are haunted

I can prey

I can cry

But still you make

Me want to die

When you take me

You make me bleed

Will I ever get the

Love I need.

~that too~

Heres to you

Want me?

Take me.

Hurt me?

Break me.

Use me like Ive been before

Leave me when Im craving me.

Tease me, slap me, make me bleed.

Abuse me, rape me, neglect my need.

Torture me, fill, me because its fun.

Kiss me, kill, me then your done.

Youre not a man, youre a little boy.

But I cant say much because Im your toy.

~and that~

The words that wont come

I dont wanna be demanding

But youre not understanding

When I tell you I need you

You stare like it aint true

What do I have to do

To make you want me once more

Cant you see I aint a simple whore?

Id die for you, to protect you

The one I loved

But now Im shoved in the corner

Because Im the former, the one before

Im like the old doll with a torn dress

My face is a mess

Im not pretty any more so you push me aside

But you still cant hide

I see what youre tryin to do

What youre putting me through

I cant take it no longer

I wanna be stronger

To tell you I dont need you

But for some reason I still do

I cant let go of you

Im standing in distress

Wanting to bless

But all I have are the pieces of a dream

And a part of me I will never see

So I sit and pray that maybe one day Ill be with her

That in some way well be a family

.but nothing that good has ever happened to me

~worte that in creative writing,but it wasn't a graded assignment~

(this one is a free verse) 

Upstairs bathroom

Ugly tile floors wet with water and stained with blood, and an old tampon wrapper.

Pink soap dripping into the sink.

I scoop it up to wash my hands then rinse without realizing theres no paper towels.

I wipe my damp hands on my pants and look in the mirror.

I see smeared eyeliner and smudged mascara from crying earlier,

Tangled hair in locks of black, brown, and orange.

Something written on the wall catches my eye, bible verse uttering the words to a prayer.

I shake my head..there is no god.

~now i wrote that in middle school so it ain't so great,but it was a bad day and i just wrote what was going on in my head~